Sweet girl

Elle came up to me today and said, "ooooh mommy, your back still hurts?", then rubbed my back and kissed it. She had been doing that in the morning when we wake up, when I ask her to, but never just out of the blue like that. It was so cute.

My poor daughter... it is amazing how much home videos will show you about your own life. It is scary sometimes. We take these little videos, snippets of our lives together, and I usually think, well, this is insignificant, but it might mean more when I watch later. And usually it does.

Like the other day we were watching some video from Jan and Feb, and Eric is filming, and I am sitting there playing with Justin. He pans over to Elle and she is sitting there alone on the couch, crushed. She looks like she is about to cry. I had never really noticed this, just noticed that she would act up a lot when I gave Justin extra attention.

So I began giving her more positive attention- most of it had been negative- don't strangle your brother, etc. I noticed at the playground that she loved when we played together, but when I would go back to see what Justin was doing, she'd freak out. Duh, mommy. She needs more attention.

I guess she thought I didn't love her anymore. Now that she is getting much more attention, loving, cuddling, rocking, etc, she is much happier. She keeps coming up to me and just hugging me around the legs, and saying, "I missed you so much mommy". It is enough to break your heart.

Wow. It is amazing what a little home video can do.